Sunday, October 26, 2008

Division....

I really never liked division when I was in school and I sure don't now. Who gets this? Who gets that? Which holiday do you want the children? Odd or even years? Every or every other weekend? My head hurts from even thinking about all of it. It took me a week to fill out my proposed parenting plan. Who would have thought that we would ever have to do this? The courts get to decide our lives for us. I feel as if I have no say in my life anymore. I didn't want any of this! When you are emotional, you shouldn't have to make decisions that will affect you and your children forever. But how long should a person wait to have some closure to this disaster? I now just want it over with. As crazy as that may sound, I feel as though I need to get on with my life. Sometimes things don't happen the way you plan or want them to ,but you have to make the best of it and I'm trying. I just take it day by day. I know that I'm not always going to do or say the right thing, but I have tried to do the right thing for 15 years and look where I am today. I hope that I don't make too many mistakes or embarrass my children. I feel as though I am entitled to screw up every now and then though. Wednesday is going to be a rough day. Please continue to pray for me and my family. I hope everyone has a great week.

3 comments:

Alison Cummins said...

You didn't screw up! This will be a rough week for you, but know that all of us at school are here for you. We are your family!

Paula B. said...

Shannon,
I am Paula Morris, my husband David and David F. are friends.
I have been reading your blog along the way. I am so sorry to hear about your divorce.
Children love their mothers no matter what, even if you think your screwing up your children don't think so.
Have faith in God and you won't go wrong.
You may think I am just another person giving you advice but David and I recently(2 months ago) went through the same thing.(sort of) I still don't understand what his problem is but the children see mom is doing, and will always do everything in her power for them.They love dad, but a mother's love is unconditional. Hang in, this too shall pass.
Paula Morris

Tammy said...

Shannon..I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this. Divorce is never a pretty thing and it seems like no matter how hard you both try to make it easy on the children they always seem to get torn between you both. I will be thinking about you and praying for you this week. Let me know if there is anything Stacey and I can do for you.
Tammy Sliger